Another year has passed...
Seriously why would I bother counting the years anymore? It's almost all the same to me.

A year, new experience, rinse, repeat.
Another year, another phase in life I expect myself to be in.

Lets see, my goal last year is to 'Surpass Myself'.

Consider this done but still not finished.

Yes, last year is considered quite fruitful to me, lots of new experiences that I picked up. I should be able to list some here..

1. Go to Australia for the first time.
 Right off the bat, instead of going to survey or having a holiday there, I went there to study, that was quite a feat when I do not know what to do there or expect over there. Thinking it was more like a spaghetti western type of town... Instead its another urbanized alcove, instead much more cleaner and the air is better.

2. Surprised myself at my ability to study.
Seriously, after National Service, I never knew that I have the observational skill needed and the multi-task ability... I for one, do not know how it arises and where it came from. Must be the motivation I had, even with my Junior College background, I would safely say that I can forget most of the stuff I learnt.
Hence with this Grade Point Average I achieved, I am truly surprised.

3. Made a number of friends.
I had this queer sense of self that enables me to click and adapt to people quite easily. Having a lot of new friends is one thing, but trying to keep them is another.

4. Picked up quite a few new skills.
Cycling for one and many more I guess. To me, learning new stuff is basically like teaching a old dog new tricks. Its doable, but the resistance is damn high. Unlike some stuff that I had been constantly been exposed for quite some time.
Its like learning how to walk... without the training wheels. But the sense of satisfaction is awesome indeed.


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Speaking of which.

I would like to set a new goal this year.

Experience tough times and emerge better. Experience the worst choices so I could learn harder.
Basically a sadistic form of surpassing myself.

Sometimes, life doesn't come easy.
True that most of the time I tried to sneak the easy way out.
Most of the time.
Most of the time, when trouble comes... I also tried to handle it in the easiest way for me.

Well, ironically,
Videogames has taught me quite a few things.

One, I am a gaming addict.
That is no joke, most of the time, I play the game just to have the thrill of unlocking. Be it trophies or others.

Why the hook?
Is it the challenge?
Let me illustriate an example, Demon Souls, or by it's extension, Dark Souls.
Why are they so challenging?
Why are they so mind-blowing to say the least, their difficulty level is really really hard. Like impossibly hard.

To tell you the truth, living in the video game life is actually quite refreshing. Simple as it maybe, whatever outside the world is left to your imagination. How to fight bosses, how to overcome it, people had undergone these trials and are willing to share their experiences.

Its collective experience.
Its the same as why I feel so empty even when I am surrounded by friends and family. It all relates back to happiness, and what am I supposed to do.

In this update, in this process of typing this post, what I know is hardship... I was playing Shadow of the Colossus.

Fighting a very very hard boss called Gaius, which is ironically, means gay (merry) and it was a difficult and arduous battle indeed.

So my point is, I kept retrying over and over again for 2 days.

If life has a reset button to do what ever we want. It would only exist in videogames.
If you don't succeed, try again, this is what I learnt most of the time.
Well, life do not give you as much chances, and the following chances are usually even harder than original try..


Well, thats all for now!

Cheerio!

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